Ways to Destroy Yourself

I want to destroy myself,
In the most beautiful ways.

Like painting a thousand pictures
With a bright magical sharp pen;
That is silver but draws red.

Fall in love with someone
I don't have any opportunity with.
-Spend one hundred nights
Crying for a unrequited love.

And then put my fingers down
My throat,
So i can get out all the butteflies in my stomach.
-Until i see come them out red.

I want to destroy myself,
Rip off all my limbs,
Cut all my parts,
Till i feel the epitome of pain.

So later i can
Rearrange myself.
                                                     
I want to tear my skin apart,
I want to re open all my scars;
Maybe that way they'll disappear finally

I want to cry,
Until my eyes are bloodshot.
- But didn't you do that
yesterday already?

I want to pull out my heart
From my chest,
Maybe that way i'll stop catching feelings, like a fool.

I want to destroy myself,
In the most painful ways.
So if get out alive
I won't be myself
but someone else.